A little update

[awanderingbard]

I've been alive for thirty-two years, and the only time we haven't had a dog in the house was six weeks when I was five years old, between when Fergus, our first Scottie, died and the breeder called to ask us to take Randy, our second Scottie, as an emergency case. Not having Ascii around and not having any dog around is really weird. I had a really hard time on Sunday, I think as much of a culmination of everything I've been through lately as grief over Ascii. Thankfully, it's gotten better since then, once I had some sleep on me. But we're all having moments of 'where's Ascii? Oh...yeah'.

We've agreed it's not the time to bring a new dog in, with all of us a little under the weather. Maybe in the Spring, when we've had time to heal up and it's not so stressful here. Mom e-mailed the breeder to let her know about Ascii and she called Mom and they chatted for a while. She has lots of litters and older dogs, I'm sure she'll find one to suit us when we're ready. She's always chosen really well in the past.

Aside from Sunday, when I was a mess, I'm still feeling physically pretty good, and so much better than before the surgery. I didn't realize how sick I was. I can even sing better now. The stone fragments coming through still sucks, but I feel a lot clearer in the head and just generally more myself.

And Mom's noticed a big improvement in her ability to walk and stand up for longer periods in the last few days, so improvements are happening, even amongst the bad things.

Comments

[aelfgyfu_mead]

I'm glad you're both doing better, but losing Ascii during your recoveries must be especially difficult. Pets can be such a blessing and a comfort, but then losing them is so much pain!

I'm glad Ascii had a good and pretty long life for a dog, and I hope you can find comfort in the memories. You have so many great photos!

[awanderingbard.livejournal.com]

Pets can be such a blessing and a comfort, but then losing them is so much pain!

Definitely. We were all very attached to her, I think even more because we've all been through so much and she was such a naturally happy and optimistic and loving dog that she helped us all through it. We've all kind of had the dogs that hit us the hardest due to them being around at a time we needed them (Fergus for my Mom, Randy for my brother, Shilling for my dad, and Puzzle for me), but Ascii was really close to everyone, instead of just latching on to one person. So we've all found it hard (even my brother was upset and he's never lived here when she did) but we're doing okay.

Thanks for the kind words!